I have been going out with my boyfriend for 11 months. I found it extremely difficult to be honest with him as I had been sexually abused as a child. I learnt at a very early age that telling the truth got you know where as my parents did not believe me that my brother was sexually abusing me.I tried several times during this period to tell him the truth about my past relationships, my addiction to drugs and the fact that I had slept with someone else. Throughout the relationship I continued to lie as I did not think he would love me for me and I thought he would abandon me just like everyone else. I guess in away I have shown him not myself but a fake person.I have been in two previous relationships and I have never really been present with these people. As I have always been inside myself and never been able to let anyone close to me. This is the first person ever in my life that I have been honest with and that after 11 months I can now be myself and he has given me a tremendous gift of me being to be me and in turn I have given him me.This man I love very much and i have now told him the truth about everything over the last 11 months. By me lying it has put a huge strain on the relationship and he does not know if he can trust me anymore and he also thinks that we now have no foundation for a relationship.He also thinks that I have no values and he is always negative about the relationship. I don’t know what to do as I love him and I have realised that i want to spend the rest of my life with him. Please help as I do not want to lose him.