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Dear Dr.Love,

First I'd like to thank your replying my previous question(July 2011) and giving your valuble advice. I've tried following your advice for about 2 months and sharing the details below. I still have few questions regarding this.

Dear Dr.Love,

First I'd like to thank your replying my previous question(July 2011) and giving your valuble advice. I've tried following your advice for about 2 months and sharing the details below. I still have few questions regarding this.

As you've told, I tried diverting my sexual feelings. I fantasized on few other women and watched hot movies in TV for masturbating. Still I couldn't giveup fantasizing my mother.

Sorry, I didn't give enough details in my last post. My dad also lives with us only, but travels lot and away from home often due to his nature of work. My mother's father died when my mother was a teen, so I can say for sure that he did not abuse my mother. My mothers mom was a very decent and good woman. So I could not relate my mothers behaviour to anything.

There had been times my mother asked me to adjust her bra even when my dad was in home, in other room. Something happened before I got your advice. That day my mother had accidentally seen me nude, though it was not the first time she was seeing me nude. I've seen that her eyes were on my manhood and I got embarassed and covered. She smiled and left the room. After an hour she came to the living room where I was watching TV ,and my dad was also there. She was in Saree, but not wearing a blouse. She had put a black bra on her, and her bra cups were covered by the saree in the front, but her right shoulder was bare just with the bra strap. When she walked around, I seen her back was bare above her hips, having only the bra. It made me very hot. She seemed like searching for some CD in the rack, showing her back clearly to me. I even got a little glimpse of her side view in bra as her saree moved when she was doing this.She paraded like this for some 10 minutes in that room. My dad didn't seem to mind anything. I couldn't find out why my mom was doing this.

I'm unable to judge her behavior. She has never exposed herself nude to me. I have not seen her flirting much with others. But there had been few incidents. About an year ago, when we went on a trip to a hill station, we had to board a over crowded bus one day. I was just behind my mom, my dad was far away inside the bus. As it was too crowded my body got pressed on my mom – to be specific – my crotch got pressed on my moms buttocks and I got a hard-on. I got embarassed to get an erection in a public bus, that too due to my mom, so I moved back quickly. My mom noticed that I moved away. Meanwhile another guy in the bus, who could be some 7 or 8 years elder to my mom moved to the place where I was. The bus started moving and in the next stop some people got down. The bus was still crowded, but now I could see that guy behind my mom clearly. He was literally on my mom. His front side was kinda sandwiched on my mothers back. My mom was helpless as it was a crowded bus. As it was hill station, it was a bumpy ride and I found that, this guy was literally enjoying pressing on my mom. The journey was over half an hour, and I'm sure that guy had a good time. During another day of the trip, a boy around 15 years old was pressing his crotch on my mothers arms. My mom was sitting and this boy was standing next to her. He was not pressing continously, but it's like rubbing his thing on her shoulder and arms very frequently, during every turn, wherever theres a small shake in the bus. My moms' face looked like she was unaware of this, but I'm sure she would have surely felt somthting was pressing on her arms and shoulder.

Even last week, when my mom and I were going out for shopping, two guys in their 20s crossed us. One of the guy literally brushed his arm on my mothers breast while crossing us. I turned back and looked at that guy and my mom told me he would have brushed accidentally, he's a small boy only. From these incidents, I can say that she did let few things like these. But I never seen her having an affair or anything more explicit.

As per your advice, I told my mom that I feel embarassed to see her undressing infront of me. She told me that it's ok, shes my mother. But afterwards, she stopped dressing or undressing in front of me for over a month. She was also not asking me to adjust her bra. She took help from the maid. But 2 weeks ago I and my mother went for a function in my relatives place for a couple of days. We stayed in the same hotel room. We had to share the same bed. That night, as we got into the bed, my mom hugged me, but I did not find that sexual. It's winter season and so the room was cold. So my mom asked me to come closer, and she hugged me tightly and put my hand around her waist. We had a single blanket covering us, and beneath we were hugging each other. We were dressed fully – She was in saree and I was in my night pants and t-shirt, but I could feel the warmth of her breasts on my chest. I got a hard-on by this time, and it was pressing on her thighs. But nothing happened more than this that night. I slept soon due to tiresome journey. Next day morning, I seen her just in petticoat after bath – like the old days. I asked her shall I go out, as she has to dress. But she insisted me to stay. I have seen her again in bra and petticoat from back. I helped her adjusting the bra, and got chance to see her mounds as I adjusted the bra. Casually she hugged me and kissed on my cheeks. She was just in her blouse and petticoat (without saree) and I was in my pants, without any shirt. That was the first time ever my bare cheast got pressed on her breasts covered just by blouse(and bra inside), as she hugged me. Unknowingly I was also hugging her. It was somewhat a long hug which lasted over a minute. She planted many kisses on my cheeks. Nothing else happened during this trip. But now a days she's again dressing/undressing in front of me. I see her in blouse and petticoat very often.

As you said it's OK to fantasize on mother, I feel relieved of my guilty feelings. I know that I can not have a physical relationship with her as she's my own mother. But I love thinking of her for my masturbation. I get great pleasure by imagining her while masturbating. But I'm really confused about her behaviour. I'm unable to judge what type of woman she is. Could you please advice me whether I can continue like this – wihtin the limits?