I am very embarrased about what has been happening to me over the past 6 months. Since I was a teenager i began thinking more about males, I mean sexually. I always thought that looking at males was wrong so I tried my best to ignore looking at them.Over the years my urges have been getting stronger and now finally i have come to the conclusion that I might be homosexual. Only last week I began playing with my anus, first I fingered it but I wanted more from it so I used a carrot I found in the kitchen. I got it half way up and I began to bleed.I am very scared about this and think I need help. Please assist me as I don’t know what to do and what I have done to myself.
My advice to you is two-fold. First, you should see your physician, just to make sure that the cut that you inflicted on yourself is healing all right. Doctors are quite accustomed to these types of injuries, since many people gay, straight and bisexual do insert objects in their anuses, at times injuring the delicate tissues. I know it is embarrassing to you, but it is a problem that doctors encounter.The second thing you need to do is to see a psychotherapist. Not because you are ‘crazy’ but because you are so confused over your sexual identity and absolutely distressed over the possibility that you may be gay. The therapist will help you sort out whether you are, in fact, gay and also help you overcome the distress that you feel over your sexual orientation.Read my Advice Archives on the subject as well. You will soon realize that having homosexual urges is quite normal, even among ‘straight’ individuals. Having such urges doesn’t mean that you must act them out. Many straight men simply enjoy their fantasies about other men and choose to live a straight lifestyle. This may be an option for you, if you don’t wish to live a gay lifestyle.You need to do a lot of talking before you make such important decisions. Hang in there. You aren’t alone in your feelings.
