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to get my story to make sense i need to tell you from A- Z so here it goes. my boy friend and i met when i was 18 at a gym. we started the relationship a month after meeting for 3 times. i understand the fact that we rush things without being friends first especially when clearly i wasnt over my ex.

to get my story to make sense i need to tell you from A- Z so here it goes. my boy friend and i met when i was 18 at a gym. we started the relationship a month after meeting for 3 times. i understand the fact that we rush things without being friends first especially when clearly i wasnt over my ex. i got excited because i believed that he was the one because he appeared just after i broke up with my ex.. theres no word to explain but yeah i was pretty moved by his actions. after days of being together, my ex came to me and wanted me back. to be honest i didnt think twice when i said okay. i was blinded and one thing lead to another. my boyfriend warned me about him. (he didnt know i was with my ex while i was with him) after a few months things got uglier he found out about the affair and a few months later i found out he was actually with someone from the start (as in he was someones boy friend when he asked me to be his.) it was a no doubt the worst day of my life. ive caught him cheating alot. i did the same too. i know for a fact that my affair was worse but the thing that made me angry is the he never knew how im hurt too because of his affair. he said that i knew from the beginning you were never serious so i did that as a revenge. once he said that its because he pity her, which is it. we will never know. we tried to go our separate ways, our longest was 3months but we just cant live without each other.. its been 3years since all the cheating and everything now we’re fine but we just cant trust each other. i tried but i just cant cause i realised hes never been honest with me but as for me, im 100% faithful. he hit me, he spit on me, he slapped me, he kicked me (i did too.. its a total love hate situation) i am very close to be insane i wanted to break up but he never allow it, no matter how much i tried. i checked on the internet if im depressed & what worries me is that i have all the symptoms of a depressed person, him too. so im scared. i dont know what to do?. dont tell me we should break up cause its never gonna work.