Hi. I have been seeing this chap for 3 years now. It has been a casual relationship but it still made me fall in love with him even though he had a on off girlfriend. Now he’s back with her again and I love him too much to leave him and am scared if I leave I’ll never find anyone or have to settle with someone I dont find attractive.We have loans together and I’ve even lent him over 200 quid to get his flat together and he was coming on holiday with us in October. I dont know what to do i just want to die.